I am soo pissed!! I hate people and Megan doesn’t like hanging out with me anymore she is to busy for me and I don’t want to tel her that I miss her because she will feel overwhelmed and I don’t want her to feel that because its not her fault but I just miss her and feeling like I’m her best friend because she’s mine and I don’t know what to do because we never get to hang out by ourselves but everyone else does its like she does so much with people an tells mercer and McKenna but never me! Why am I not good enough for her why I just don’t understand and it makes me feel like I do t matter to the one person who I’ve told my entire life too so I don’t know how to deal with it without cutting like I want to harm myself so that I can forget how I ann feeling but I can’t but I also can and this weekend is supposed to be about me but all they talk about is going to mccallie graduation and not to mine am I not cool enough I am not good enough for her attention I am just so done with not having friends and I want my best friend back and I know I am being selfish but I haven’t been selfish ever! I never say anything and its hard to keep my feelings down like I want to throw up my feelings are putting so much pressure on me. I just don’t know how to assert myself without seeming needy or whiney and certain people piss me off when they lie and it is their fucking ice cream bowl so just pick it the fuck up and don’t seem better than everyone ugh ok done ranting about her for a moment but really I just can’t figure out why she doesn’t like hanging out with me anymore and I just wish I could be there for her because I know she is going through a lot but its just so hard to get her to talk. Ok done. Thanks for listening if you made it this far!
i just got really fucked up thinking about clouds
- weigh as much as an elephant or a 747 or more but still float
- literally full of electricity much like your standard vibrator
- pisses rain all over us ungrateful bastards
- make cool shapes like rabbits or dongs
- they dont give a fuck where they go they just go to trash shit
props clouds, you’re metal as hell
